Every time I begin to think ” ok… I’m fine… I’m good. There’s nothing wrong with me.. it was all just in my head.. I’m good!”.. then something happens. Another symptom appears. Literally overnight. Or at night time. Or in the middle of the day. Whenever it just feels like rearing its ugly head and throwing whatever it wants my way.

I had almost two solid good weeks! And then…overnight..my hip. My hip began to ache the same wasy it did my freshman year of high school. That dull but sharp aching pain. I’m hobbling around for a week now from it. I was doing really well and feeling better for a couple weeks.. ever since I started taking the Modere… I thought I was on my way to total healing and that MS would no longer be on the table for what my diagnosis could be. I thought I had talked myself out of this in my own head.. as if I could scare MS away with just my wishing for it to be “not it”.

Of course, I do not have a diagnosis at this moment, and that is one of the most frustrating parts of this whole ordeal for the past 8 months. The not knowing why theres something wrong with you. The nonbelievers when you tell them you are sick. But what I do have, is many repeated symptoms. Tonight, a new “old” symptoms came up, the muscle cramps in my legs. Tonight the left foot cramped up and went all the way up the lower part of the back of my leg. And my hip, for several days now. ‘

Tomorrow who knows. Or the day after that